being a non-bumi malaysian

few months back there was this big controversy that occured in UPM. apparently it was orientation week and the student council was having it in the cafetaria or some sort. so step in a few UPM chinese students from another association who set up a table to have their own recruitment drive. so a argument....wait let me rephrase that, a "BULLYING" session started. council had some 20 odd students while the chinese group had only some 5-7 fellas.

i read bout it in the papers and did not felt a thing. i thought it was just another misunderstanding that when a bit out of hand. at that time i just couldnt understand what the whole fuss was bout. that was until i saw the video and hour ago on U-tube....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ndYvb7GvLDk

when i saw the video i was fucking pissed!!!! 20 odd of them harassing a small group of chinese (the bookworm defenceless type) which included a few girl members. idiots were pushing them around, shoving their shoes and football boots at their faces and screaming at them. and the only thing the poor chink could do was the shout, "Jangan gaduh! Jangan gaduh!!" and all those bastards were laughing at him.

ok look, im not angry because im a chinese and it was the chinese getting pushed around here. i have many friends from all races. if the situation was reversed i would be ashame and angry as well. 20 against 7. how brave of them. how fair can that be. why dont they try doing the same thing down in Petaling street or Jinjang. bloody cowards....

anyway, because the vidoe was mass circulated in the internet, the local chinese press picked it up and it made headlines. due to the public outcry and political pressure UPM had an inquiry into the matter. all the perpetrators were let off with a stern warning becaue their actions were deemed "not serious" as they were just "pushing people and chairs". if you ask me, they got off lightly. you can go speculate why why they got off easy.

on retrospect, the chinse students were wrong in the first place to set up their counter since they have not got official approval from the administration. but a bigger crime was definately committed by the members of the student council. one can understand their anger of having their space intruded, but we are not animals and they are university students at an age where a certain level of maturity would have set in. to behave in the manner they had is shameful and down right disgusting.

the matter did not end after the inquiry. a cyber war of sorts was being raged on the internet. i got a real shocked when i read some of the comments posted on U-Tube.

meangirl: Kudos for Malays!That's what happened when they let Malays/Bumis get into the university with mediocre scores while the Chinese could be denied despite of earning excellent results.

broaguy: fuck you meangirl88, i hope i can fuck your mom and force your dad to fuck you in front of ur buddha statue..fuck u slit eyes..u pig-faced freak chinese

hansiam: brogaguy pls enjoy urself... after that pls use ur fucking koran clean ur sperm!!! ok.

a center for higher education is suppose to be a place where future leaders of this country is being shaped. based on these comments, things dont look to bright for our country. but there is always hope

whitedice29: can we stop the hating in this thread...its just making things worst.wat the diff between u and the guys in the vid if ur going at each others throat like this?theres no diff at all..and please leave the topic religion free...its not a good thing to read.might be hard to control these kinds of violence,but if people who reads this cant even think rasionally,might as well just leave the dream of having world peace.

after 49 years of Merdeka, its sad that we still live under the shadow of racialism. some older people i know feel things are no better than when we were under the british. in fact, they believe that it has actually worsen. lets face it man. we are not as MUHIBAH as we like to potray ourselves to be to the world. you see posters of chinese, malays and indians smilling together as though there is no promblem in the world. yeah right. "air yang tenang jangan disangka tiada buaya." we are living under the constant threat of racial disintegration. i cant help but feel that i would see a racial riot happening in the not to distant future. i've already seen one in this life time (kg gandhi and kg baru incident). under the apparently placid smooth waters of racial relationship, there is a storm brewing from underneath.

and why not. the finger cannot be pointed to the normal rakyat may they be malays, chinese, indians, kadazans, ibans etc. how can the rakyat themselves hope to work with each other in harmony when polliticians and leaders in this country constantly play the race card in order to enhance their standing in their community. how can there be hope if the goverment doesnt have the political will to make hard, unpopular but RIGHT decision that will ensure fairness for all communities. the rakyat look up to their leaders for direction and guidance. if the leader is just a power hungry, selfish piece of shit then how?? how long more before all of us realises that we are MALAYSIANS and not malays, chinese, indians etc??

sometimes as a malaysian chinese, i get the felling that im growing and living on a rented house. you live and grow in it. you love the house and have many fond memories but the land lord constantly reminds you that its not your place and that you are are lucky to be living there as though you dont deserve to be there. and when there is a big problem with the house and you want it fix, the land lord says that its your problem and if you dont like it, you can move out. that is seriously how i feel.

how many times have us non-malays been told to "balik tongsan" or "balik india"??? how many times have we heard of stories of hardworking non-malays in the civil service being passed off for a promotion to a young upstart because of the colour of skin or the name in which he calls God. how many times have we read in the papers of non-malay students with exceptional academic performance failing to get into the university or a scholarship? how many times have we read of orang asli kampungs who do not have clean water supply and electricity??

look, im not against helping those really in need in this country. if you want to give scholarship to poor but deserving students, give them by all means. if you want to help new businessman in the dog eat dog world of business, by all means give it to them. but it seems that only the bumis that are on the receiving end of most things. are there only poor bumis in this country?? are there no poor or derserving people from other races?? im not denying the fact that chinese and indian students do receive scholarships etc, but there are so many more being left to fend for themselves. and who looses out in the end?? why go crying about brain drain everytime and calling those working overseas as un-patriotic?? why ask stupid questions like, "how come non-malays are joining the civil service and police??" if you put such racially discriminating policies, of course they wont want to come back or join the civil service.

why do we always get the impression that we are just visitors in this country. my forefathers might come from a foreign land on a boat but i was born and raised a Malaysian. i know no other country then this. my mother land aint china!!! my mother land is Malaysia and am proud to say that it!! unlike some people i know who wants migrate from this country, i would never do so. why would i?? i know no other home but malaysia. and i love my home.

my fore fathers and the forefathers of others from various races did their part in helping Malaysia earn her indepence and make Malaysia what it is today. why then are we not able to enjoy the same benefits. other races pay their taxes dont they?? we help built up the economy didnt we??

WHY???

i love my country, malaysia dearly. but does my country love me??